Happy Graduation

Today is my graduation day!!!!
Okayyy. I admit tat I'm so happy bcuz we're going to leave skul very soooon
But I will miss my high skul life too
I have a bunch of lovely frens.
Seriously, My tears almost burst out when I'm going to leave the hall.
Haha. Dunno wat they felt. But I'm truly happy to have these bunch of crazy frens!


Especially,


Tze Yu ( Fren tat have a sincere heart)
Janice Low Suet Li ( Fren tat have a sweet smile)
Low Chian Ni ( Fren tat alwys trusted me)
Sara Yap ( Fren tat alwys make fun wit her pretty face)
Elaine Har ( Fren tat alwys provide transport and alwys share food wit me)
Carmen Loke ( Fren tat alwys help me when I'm in trouble)
Michelle Han ( Fren tat alwys give me good advice and willing to lend her ears to me)
         
Haha. Really hope tat v can keep in touch in the future. 
Guyss, I really love U soooooo much! :D


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My imagination is truly good.
But i knw tat it was juz a dream. 
There is nothing happen between us. 
I'm juz too obsess to u.
But dun worry, it wont last long. =D
I knw wat is the difference between us.


Love is like a movie. 
It will have a happy or a sad ending.
Mine must b a sad ending. haha :D
Nothing much to say abt love cuz I'm not really knw "him"


Time pass very very fast. 
I already finished my trial on last week.
The result is not bad but not good also.
Haha. Will work more harder in this month!!
God bless me pls. :)

Time

Time 
I wrote dis essay last week. Hmm..
I used 2 days to complete.
Only I realize time is so much important to us.
We cant predict what will happen in the nxt second but v must treasure it
I realized everything tat happen to us is actually teaching us something.
No matter the problem v face is good or bad,
but it is teaching us how to face it.
We will learn much after tat. Seriously.
I'm trying to make myself become a better n filial piety child.
I try my best.
But I failed to be.
Because i nvr put my effort to do it. I try but not do.
I might b regret on wat I have done but i juz cant change it.
How pity am I.
I realized i'm wrong, I knw
But I'm still standing on the same place
I didn't move my step.
I will b very regret after I take my result. I must b regret if i'm still behave like tat.
Duh..
Dunno where to start my revision.
Dunno what should I do now.
I hope I can b like the butterfly or a bird.
Fly at the sky. Yes.
It feel very freedom
But they face problem too.
They need to escape from ppl who want to catch them,
fly very hard to others place b4 the whether change.
Everyone in this world have problem to face.
Juz c wat problem v have to face n how v solve it
Every problem have the solution to solve
Juz c whether v got put effort or not.
Ya.
Things is tat easy only.
Fighting YJV!!!! :)

OMG!!!

I nvr ever expect he will come my house. 

Damn it.

Unbelievable lor.

OMG!! 

Fortunately his bro nvr come

if not i can bang to the wall edy. 

Damn malu de because my house very messy. 

ARGH! Duh --

奇怪

最近心情很奇怪!!!
是因为PMS吗?? 哈哈
有读Bio的应该知道吧 XD
aHAHA. 

对了!! 
班上的朋友变得很变态
可是好开心哦
ehheehhe!!!
我喜欢被别人追着喊冤的时候 
因为他的样子好好笑
我喜欢作弄黎芷瑜
因为他很笨
还有太多的喜欢了


自从去了中心回来后
本小姐变了
我不回去想不开心的事
因为我爱我自己 决不让自己不开心的
嘻嘻
还有最近不说不好的东西了
因为我觉得这只会加重自己的业障
最近也不埋怨了
因为我知道是自己做得不够好

昨天晚上我哭了
是看着爸爸睡觉时哭得
不知为什么 看他这样我很心痛
可是心里的怨恨放不下
他很疼我 真的很疼
可我却因为某些时而忽略了他对我的好
很多人说我很乖
我从不承认 因为我不是一个孝顺父母的孩子
我每天都让他们担心
不会照顾自己
我不了解父母喜欢什么 讨厌什么
我却每天让他们难过


我真该反省一下 :)
人要活得开心一定要放下心里所有仇恨
对着每个人微笑
真诚的微笑
那就对了啦

想

很想回到以前
很想属于别人
很想专心上课
很想每天开心
很想没有烦恼
很想变得更好
很想看到你
很想一起说话
很想改变
很想变好
很想单纯
很想快乐
很想当个乖孩子
很想带给父母快乐

太多的很想很想
却没有一样是做到的
我     真悲哀
:(

Regret

Time is flying like an aeroplane~ Pluuuuuu~~
LOL. Seriously. I cant imagine now is already july!
SPM is COMING!!!! PPL!! Wat to do??
LOL. Dunno where to start my revision.
I knw i'll b regret if i dun start my revision now!
But. I juz cant focus.
Or should i say I'm LAZY!
ARGH!!
I'm suffering ppl!!! :(

Life after holiday

Life in volunteering is very very fun.

So tired but still happy.

Dunno y.

LOL

Something happen in there.

I juz wanna help him. But i knw I cant.

Is actually none of my business but I cant control myself. 

As Wei Chee said, I am too impulse with everything when I'm panic.

Tat's true.

OMG! I juz wan to have win win situation. 

I knw is hard to act. But wat to do? I'm still young. I cant do wat I want.

I dun have any experience to settle this type of things but i involve too. 

How stupid am I.

I should pretend I dunno de. 

Haiz... ><

But I learnt much through dis situation.

I should say TQ to him and evry ppl who get involve. 

Honestly, U guys taught me a lot. :)

Mayb u'll feel i'm not support u or wat. But still, I'm sorry.

Dunno wat to say in next.

Juz wish everybody have a happy life in there. I knw u can.

BACK TO TOPIC >>

Life after holiday is truly....... BORING!

I dun have a routine life.

At school, i sleep when teacher is teaching.

At home, i play computer until my mum get angry.

I have no idea y I become like tat.

When I wan to start my revision, I feel sleepy.

I'll tell myself have a rest 1st. 

After I take a nap, I play comp again!!

My life is full of shit!! 

I should start my new life again!

But dunno where to start!

I addicted into FB. 

But actually I have nothing to do in FB. ==

Hmm. I should deactivated edy. Until SPM over. 

Yes, Dis is wat i should do. XD

Touch

这篇文章是去年写的. 我发现我变了. T_T




什么才是辛苦? 什么是累?

我想, 我到现在还不知道吧..

在这两个星期里, 没出过街, 连补习也没得去了..

很多人问我.. 怎么没去做义工啊? 放假没去那里玩吗?

说到放假..

在七月份考试时, 我一直在想要快点到九月放假.. 一直想, 拼命想..

还说好要去当义工.. 还有去雪梨家..

呵呵! 到九月时, 很兴奋的拿下旅行包, 很兴奋得打电话给淑仪, 很兴奋得告诉朋友我要去当义工了, 很兴奋到晚上也睡不着..

听过希望越大失望越大吗??

总就逃不过的..

爸爸在我去当义工的前一天进了医院.. 危险性的中风

那一天是星期四.. 爸爸在急救室时留下了眼泪..

我知道他后悔了.. 可是还是发生了

虽然是没有人希望发生可是是我们大家预料的..

我和妈妈都希望他可以在星期一之前出院

可是就是不能.. 就在当时, 我取消一切活动

不能走路, 失禁, 吃饭需要我来喂, 吃药需要人在旁边看..

还记得第一次喝那些药时, 爸爸把全部水从口里扑过来..

我的衣湿了一点.. 我没怪他.. 只是拿几张tissue帮他擦嘴

在半夜睡觉时, 爸爸总是喜欢把我叫醒.. 呵呵!!

第一天还好, 到了第二天, 我真的忍不住发起脾气了

半夜三点多, 护士进来时, 爸爸说要坐起来..

我没理他.. 我真得很累!! 护士让他坐起来了.. 就这样他坐了两个小时..

我现在很后悔.. 其实在那两个小时里, 他一直看着我.. 也被冷气吹了两个小时..

我的心忍不住了.. 跳起来, 扶他上床.. 他, 向我说了对不起

我没回答.. 我跑进厕所, 哭了..

到了星期二, 他坚持出院..

回到家.. 坦白说, 有点麻烦

几天之后, 我习惯了.. 爸爸无论要做什么都会喊我的名..

有时我会嫌烦.. 有时又很开心的陪他

很多人说这是给我培福的好时机.. 也说明了我该感谢爸爸给我这个机会孝顺他

可是有时候, 我还会嫌烦呢

有一次, 爸爸小便在痰桶时, 因为右手不能动所以小到地上都是尿..

他喊了我的名字，[阿文啊~ 来帮我抹好吗?]

我一脸不爽的看着他.. 他很虚弱的对我说, 对不起啊~ 不要生气啊~ [我又哭了..]

每天晚上他都会对我说, 文啊, 今晚陪爸爸睡好吗? 我拒绝了

昨天他对我说, 今天陪我睡啦.. 一下下就好了.. 等我睡了你再走好不？

我说好吧.. 你睡吧.. 我就在你旁边

其实我知道他很寂寞, 很需要人陪.. 这是一个老人的心声..

我... 开始了解到了!

有人问我, 你这样照顾爸爸辛苦吗? 我只回答, 有人比我还辛苦呢..

所以当我真正的问自己辛苦吗? 说真的.. 我也不懂.. 有时, 我还觉得自己很幸福呢.. 傻了吧==|||

那你们, 辛苦吗?

失去

人生有太多事情都不能再等待

看了那短片 才知道我们已经来不及了

有太多的迷惑在我们身边围绕着

影响着我们

人心本是善良的 为什么会变成这样呢?

古代人的人心纯朴  现代的人刚好相反

可是我们又该如何改变呢?

重来

如果所有事情都能重来
我们又会不会犯同样的错?
人生就是这样的不是吗?
每一个人都会隐藏自己最真的部分
能怪谁呢?


如果当时我相信你
如果当时我没认识他们
如果我接你的电话
如果我没有猜疑

那现在的结果还是一样吗?

真的后悔了

可又能怎么样呢?

我想起了

我以为我放下了

结果还是一样一直骗自己

现在的你一定不记得我了

真笨

对不起



我又想你了 :(

Lifeless.

Depressed. 

Fuck those who alwys create non-sense thing.

Wat do u wan from me?

U hate me alot. 

Who doesnt knw?

i knw wat u had told them.

So wat? 

God knws wat r u doing!

To those who trusted her de.

Go check ur brain lar!!!!

Wat's the point to become best fren without trusting each other?

Did u hear i back stab u?

Or u listened from others?

N y dont u come n ask me?

U dont even trust me but u go n tell others v're best fren n i hurt u alot?

Summore ask ur mum to check me!

Dont think u're the one who get hurt n i owe u alot!

I wont pay back n apologize! 

Wat u two wanna do is up to u!

But one thing i'm gonna tell u is

DONT EVER THINK U CAN BREAK MY FRIENSHIP WIT HER ANYMORE!

CUZ SHE IS NOT LIKE U! 

Dream

Dream.
I dream every night.
Started to think do dreams foretell the future?
Why do we dream what we dream, wat does it mean?
LOL. Seems more confuse.
Izit the reason bcuz i think a lot in the day n dream at night? LOL
someone tell me y pls.

Today Merentas desa!!
I nvr participate in bcuz i sprain my leg! WTF!
Skip chemist tuition. So bad XD
But really feel tired. TT
Today interview the form 1 & 2!!
I almost fall asleep u knw!
I dunno whether they are too nervous or really dunno wat i'm asking them!
Keep saying, Err.. Er.. Tak tau, I dunno, i dun have ==
Wasted my time. ==
 Skip skip

There is a big big stone in my heart.
Err... Err...
Haiz.
I dream a lot!
DREAM! But still, i dunno i was dreaming at tat time.
My feeling come suddenly n disappear very fast.
Its sound so random.
Oh! I jus remember I'm the RANDOM QUEEN among my frens.
Really random!!

Wat is the different between daydream n nightdream? LOL==
Dream again XD

Need u now

when things happen in a sudden, only I knw wat i want is actually U.
LOL.==
I miss the life in centre.
Juz cross my mind very suddenly.
looking at the contact num.
searching for yi ping, wen xing..
Wanna give them a call.
But they juz called me yesterday.
Feel so hyper when listen their voice. Haha.
Flash back the day v slp together in the bed. Five of us in one Queen size bed, i think. Haha.
ARGH! Miss them sooo much.
Can i go back to the past?
I rather stayed  in the past!
I hate my life now.
Especially wit my father!
Feel like wanna running out from my home!!
Aunt Jun said dis is an exam I should pass it.
If I can pass this exam, I can bcome a very good counselor in the future.
Sound so easy?

Be grateful

Be grateful.
It sound so hard for me. Actually.
Back from centre, things doesnt go smoothly than I thought.
Fine. As my mum said, dont look back to the past.
The past is the past.

Re-open skul.
Its really fun to b wit my fren.
Hw getting more n more.
Many many ppl told me this year is an important year for me.
I knw.
But I really dun have the feeling to study.
Or should I say i dun have a dream to achieve.
i feel lost now.
Really dunno wat to do.


Be a responsible child n oso a student.
This is wat I have learnt from there.
Is now trying to be.
:)

T_________T

LOL~
My holiday~~~~~~
I spent my holiday in centre.
Volunteer work again.
But damnnnnnn happy man!
Although i alwys kena tipu by them. XD

Argh!!
Form 5 life is started from today!
My brain is going to explode. Not now. But later. ==
Booooooo!!!!!!!
Need to focus on my study liao.
Thought can go for volunteer on every sat & Sun.
But....
Haiz
SPM is more important!

Receive many message from them.
They said they very miss the life in centre.
Me too.
Live without stress.
Play happily, Learn many things from each other, smile together, cry together.
Haiz.
There is nobody going to play with me like dis in skul.
There is only  competition in each other.
Haiz.

I'm still standing in the junction.
Dunno where to go.
No direction.
sum1 help me pls?