Regret

Time is flying like an aeroplane~ Pluuuuuu~~
LOL. Seriously. I cant imagine now is already july!
SPM is COMING!!!! PPL!! Wat to do??
LOL. Dunno where to start my revision.
I knw i'll b regret if i dun start my revision now!
But. I juz cant focus.
Or should i say I'm LAZY!
ARGH!!
I'm suffering ppl!!! :(

Life after holiday

Life in volunteering is very very fun.

So tired but still happy.

Dunno y.

LOL

Something happen in there.

I juz wanna help him. But i knw I cant.

Is actually none of my business but I cant control myself. 

As Wei Chee said, I am too impulse with everything when I'm panic.

Tat's true.

OMG! I juz wan to have win win situation. 

I knw is hard to act. But wat to do? I'm still young. I cant do wat I want.

I dun have any experience to settle this type of things but i involve too. 

How stupid am I.

I should pretend I dunno de. 

Haiz... ><

But I learnt much through dis situation.

I should say TQ to him and evry ppl who get involve. 

Honestly, U guys taught me a lot. :)

Mayb u'll feel i'm not support u or wat. But still, I'm sorry.

Dunno wat to say in next.

Juz wish everybody have a happy life in there. I knw u can.

BACK TO TOPIC >>

Life after holiday is truly....... BORING!

I dun have a routine life.

At school, i sleep when teacher is teaching.

At home, i play computer until my mum get angry.

I have no idea y I become like tat.

When I wan to start my revision, I feel sleepy.

I'll tell myself have a rest 1st. 

After I take a nap, I play comp again!!

My life is full of shit!! 

I should start my new life again!

But dunno where to start!

I addicted into FB. 

But actually I have nothing to do in FB. ==

Hmm. I should deactivated edy. Until SPM over. 

Yes, Dis is wat i should do. XD

Touch

这篇文章是去年写的. 我发现我变了. T_T




什么才是辛苦? 什么是累?

我想, 我到现在还不知道吧..

在这两个星期里, 没出过街, 连补习也没得去了..

很多人问我.. 怎么没去做义工啊? 放假没去那里玩吗?

说到放假..

在七月份考试时, 我一直在想要快点到九月放假.. 一直想, 拼命想..

还说好要去当义工.. 还有去雪梨家..

呵呵! 到九月时, 很兴奋的拿下旅行包, 很兴奋得打电话给淑仪, 很兴奋得告诉朋友我要去当义工了, 很兴奋到晚上也睡不着..

听过希望越大失望越大吗??

总就逃不过的..

爸爸在我去当义工的前一天进了医院.. 危险性的中风

那一天是星期四.. 爸爸在急救室时留下了眼泪..

我知道他后悔了.. 可是还是发生了

虽然是没有人希望发生可是是我们大家预料的..

我和妈妈都希望他可以在星期一之前出院

可是就是不能.. 就在当时, 我取消一切活动

不能走路, 失禁, 吃饭需要我来喂, 吃药需要人在旁边看..

还记得第一次喝那些药时, 爸爸把全部水从口里扑过来..

我的衣湿了一点.. 我没怪他.. 只是拿几张tissue帮他擦嘴

在半夜睡觉时, 爸爸总是喜欢把我叫醒.. 呵呵!!

第一天还好, 到了第二天, 我真的忍不住发起脾气了

半夜三点多, 护士进来时, 爸爸说要坐起来..

我没理他.. 我真得很累!! 护士让他坐起来了.. 就这样他坐了两个小时..

我现在很后悔.. 其实在那两个小时里, 他一直看着我.. 也被冷气吹了两个小时..

我的心忍不住了.. 跳起来, 扶他上床.. 他, 向我说了对不起

我没回答.. 我跑进厕所, 哭了..

到了星期二, 他坚持出院..

回到家.. 坦白说, 有点麻烦

几天之后, 我习惯了.. 爸爸无论要做什么都会喊我的名..

有时我会嫌烦.. 有时又很开心的陪他

很多人说这是给我培福的好时机.. 也说明了我该感谢爸爸给我这个机会孝顺他

可是有时候, 我还会嫌烦呢

有一次, 爸爸小便在痰桶时, 因为右手不能动所以小到地上都是尿..

他喊了我的名字，[阿文啊~ 来帮我抹好吗?]

我一脸不爽的看着他.. 他很虚弱的对我说, 对不起啊~ 不要生气啊~ [我又哭了..]

每天晚上他都会对我说, 文啊, 今晚陪爸爸睡好吗? 我拒绝了

昨天他对我说, 今天陪我睡啦.. 一下下就好了.. 等我睡了你再走好不？

我说好吧.. 你睡吧.. 我就在你旁边

其实我知道他很寂寞, 很需要人陪.. 这是一个老人的心声..

我... 开始了解到了!

有人问我, 你这样照顾爸爸辛苦吗? 我只回答, 有人比我还辛苦呢..

所以当我真正的问自己辛苦吗? 说真的.. 我也不懂.. 有时, 我还觉得自己很幸福呢.. 傻了吧==|||

那你们, 辛苦吗?

失去

人生有太多事情都不能再等待

看了那短片 才知道我们已经来不及了

有太多的迷惑在我们身边围绕着

影响着我们

人心本是善良的 为什么会变成这样呢?

古代人的人心纯朴  现代的人刚好相反

可是我们又该如何改变呢?

重来

如果所有事情都能重来
我们又会不会犯同样的错?
人生就是这样的不是吗?
每一个人都会隐藏自己最真的部分
能怪谁呢?


如果当时我相信你
如果当时我没认识他们
如果我接你的电话
如果我没有猜疑

那现在的结果还是一样吗?

真的后悔了

可又能怎么样呢?

我想起了

我以为我放下了

结果还是一样一直骗自己

现在的你一定不记得我了

真笨

对不起



我又想你了 :(

Lifeless.

Depressed. 

Fuck those who alwys create non-sense thing.

Wat do u wan from me?

U hate me alot. 

Who doesnt knw?

i knw wat u had told them.

So wat? 

God knws wat r u doing!

To those who trusted her de.

Go check ur brain lar!!!!

Wat's the point to become best fren without trusting each other?

Did u hear i back stab u?

Or u listened from others?

N y dont u come n ask me?

U dont even trust me but u go n tell others v're best fren n i hurt u alot?

Summore ask ur mum to check me!

Dont think u're the one who get hurt n i owe u alot!

I wont pay back n apologize! 

Wat u two wanna do is up to u!

But one thing i'm gonna tell u is

DONT EVER THINK U CAN BREAK MY FRIENSHIP WIT HER ANYMORE!

CUZ SHE IS NOT LIKE U! 

Dream

Dream.
I dream every night.
Started to think do dreams foretell the future?
Why do we dream what we dream, wat does it mean?
LOL. Seems more confuse.
Izit the reason bcuz i think a lot in the day n dream at night? LOL
someone tell me y pls.

Today Merentas desa!!
I nvr participate in bcuz i sprain my leg! WTF!
Skip chemist tuition. So bad XD
But really feel tired. TT
Today interview the form 1 & 2!!
I almost fall asleep u knw!
I dunno whether they are too nervous or really dunno wat i'm asking them!
Keep saying, Err.. Er.. Tak tau, I dunno, i dun have ==
Wasted my time. ==
 Skip skip

There is a big big stone in my heart.
Err... Err...
Haiz.
I dream a lot!
DREAM! But still, i dunno i was dreaming at tat time.
My feeling come suddenly n disappear very fast.
Its sound so random.
Oh! I jus remember I'm the RANDOM QUEEN among my frens.
Really random!!

Wat is the different between daydream n nightdream? LOL==
Dream again XD